Today is the last day of the year and I’m home and with family.
2015 has been bizarre. It started in M.”s home country instead of mine. He was still upset form getting insufficient attention on his birthday (the 31st). It was just a regular year.
We seemed completely in loved, happy but stressed. The first half of the year was just as I would have expected it to be a year ago. Then, my life out of nowhere just changed. No warnings, no buildup… in just a few months I went from happily married (according to me) to divorced and heartbroken.
The person that was never going to hurt me, ended up betraying me and disrespecting me beyond anything I could have ever imagined.
I end the year still somewhat in disbelief. I try not to think about last year too much, because I still don’t understand what was going through M.’s head.
He and X. are officially a couple (although not in social media since M. is very into impression management), they are currently gallivanting through Asia together (and I honestly have no idea how M. is able to afford this). I try to not think about it too much. Because ultimately M. and I have severed all ties, I haven’t heard from him in more than a month. I try to think of him as just a random person that happens to share the world with me, his actions have no bearing on me. I’m fairly successful at that most of the time.
I hope that 2016 brings as much unexpected joy into my life as 2015 brought unexpected sorrow.
I’ll just keep taking things one day at a time.
Happy New Year guys.